|The only baby bump picture you will get from me. :)|
Today at the park I noticed my super shy daughter instantly making a new friend. And it's got me thinking how funny it is that it happens every time when we go to the playground. Kids instantly go up to each other and after quick introductions are playing like they've known each other for years. I wish I could do that with the other moms. "Hi what's your name? Want to play? OK!" But it's not quite like that. Once you make that crossover into motherhood, or even adulthood for that matter, it's hard to make new friends. Although I think it might just be me. Like my daughter, I'm pretty shy (hmmm, wonder where she gets it from?). Ever since we moved into our new house, and new area, I keep thinking that I really need to find a friend. Motherhood can be lonely if you don't have some sort of network. I need a good friend who's also a mom, and one that has kids the same age as mine, and one who likes to do the same things as me and has the same sense of humor. That's not too much to ask is it? I just feel so dumb trying to meet people. I feel like she's too trendy, she's not in the same stage of life as me, her kids are much older, her kids are too young, does she even have kids, she won't like me, she already has 3 best friends and I wouldn't fit in, etc. etc. Phew. Every now and then I hang out with my high school friends or my sister in laws, and it is so easy. Our kids get along and nothing in our friendship feels forced. But that time with them makes me wish I had that closer to home (my HS friends and I are spread out about an hour apart).
Now I know this sounds really pathetic like I'm the wallflower in the corner with no friends. And I guess I am. I'm finding comfort in the fact that no one really reads this blog...but I'm curious how people out there find that one friend they can call up any day of the week and say 'meet us at the park'.
I don't mean for this post to be a downer but it's just been weighing on my mind lately. Glad I have this weekend to relax and recharge, despite the pouring rain.